The last few weeks I have had a bit of spiritual confusion going on.  Have had  since we shut down LifeQuest Church a couple of months ago.  I had felt spiritually homeless since then.  On August 7th God gave me the City on our Knees Vision ( http://www.facebook.com/cityonknees ) which I was working on till I ran into some roadblocks getting timely event permission from the city.

Last Sunday evening I was invited to a tent revival going on in Unionville where I discovered them carrying out what City on our Knees was to be plus a lot more (though I now believe that maybe City on our Knees is to possibly be something slightly different – waiting to hear about that). Well anyway, what they were doing there fell all along into what I have felt God calling me to do for a long time.

BUT, by Friday night I was actually a little irritated and probably a little upset with God.  I saw what was going on here and how they were living my vision bigger and better than I had seen it…and well I started having me a little pity party about becoming a spectator then rather than a visionary.  BUT, earlier that night a pastor had spoken about God’s deliverance from the cancer he had been diagnosed with.

On Saturday God had sent me back to the tent meeting, this time to inquire about two things. The first of the two was personal and I won’t go into it here.  The second was about us and our vision being sidelined and not wanting to be a spectator in ministry.  After talking to Pastor Fambro, God showed me something else.

He brought me back to the message the other pastor had given on Friday night, the message about deliverance from cancer.  God reminded me that he had also delivered me from a diagnosis of cancer – a diagnosis that the doctor was 100% certain of and that God healed me of. I will give my testimony of that at another time, but what God was showing me was that scar was my God Scar and I am in a way privileged to have it.

It is there as a reminder.

A reminder at times when my faith may want to waiver.

A reminder that God is able.

A reminder that God still heals today.

A reminder our God loves us.

In Genesis 32:25 God touched Jacob’s hip – I have a God Scar where he touched me….as a reminder of Him.

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Our new motto for LifeQuest Church is “Where the past doesn’t determine your future”.

So that if any one is in Christ, that one is a new creature; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.  (2Co 5:17)

So many times we look at others and instead of seeing the new creation we still see what the person used to be.  We see the alcoholic, the druggie, the sex addict, the addictions they had, the liar, etc…    Even when we look at ourselves we do this – we think about how we can’t do something because of our imagined limitations or we worry about what others will think of us.

But God doesn’t care about any of that, the past that is. I think he does care that we still see ourselves and others as we used to be.  God doesn’t care about our past – I don’t think that God even remembers what we were,not that he can’t remember but he chooses to remember and see us as he has made us to be and not to see us as we were.

Our future is a blank page that we can write. Our past decisions don’t decide what goes on that page. our old addictions don’t decide, the dependencies we had don’t decide.  Our walk with Jesus will help us write what goes on that page and it may contain a future that you can’t even imagine right now.

Steve