I have about a 9-inch scar on the inside of my right arm that God has shown me is my God Scar.
The last few weeks I have had a bit of spiritual confusion going on. Have had since we shut down LifeQuest Church a couple of months ago. I had felt spiritually homeless since then. On August 7th God gave me the City on our Knees Vision ( http://www.facebook.com/cityonknees ) which I was working on till I ran into some roadblocks getting timely event permission from the city.
Last Sunday evening I was invited to a tent revival going on in Unionville where I discovered them carrying out what City on our Knees was to be plus a lot more (though I now believe that maybe City on our Knees is to possibly be something slightly different – waiting to hear about that). Well anyway, what they were doing there fell all along into what I have felt God calling me to do for a long time.
BUT, by Friday night I was actually a little irritated and probably a little upset with God. I saw what was going on here and how they were living my vision bigger and better than I had seen it…and well I started having me a little pity party about becoming a spectator then rather than a visionary. BUT, earlier that night a pastor had spoken about God’s deliverance from the cancer he had been diagnosed with.
On Saturday God had sent me back to the tent meeting, this time to inquire about two things. The first of the two was personal and I won’t go into it here. The second was about us and our vision being sidelined and not wanting to be a spectator in ministry. After talking to Pastor Fambro, God showed me something else.
He brought me back to the message the other pastor had given on Friday night, the message about deliverance from cancer. God reminded me that he had also delivered me from a diagnosis of cancer – a diagnosis that the doctor was 100% certain of and that God healed me of. I will give my testimony of that at another time, but what God was showing me was that scar was my God Scar and I am in a way privileged to have it.
It is there as a reminder.
A reminder at times when my faith may want to waiver.
A reminder that God is able.
A reminder that God still heals today.
A reminder our God loves us.
In Genesis 32:25 God touched Jacob’s hip – I have a God Scar where he touched me….as a reminder of Him.
Great testimony to how the things we go through have a purpose and serve as strengthening faith builders down the road.
There is an incredible aspect of wrestling with God, it means He has his hands on you! What an awesome thing!
I lvoe you Daddy!:) And Jason, good point!